I always wanted to breastfeed. I thought it was the ultimate bonding experience I could possibly share with my baby. However, once I became a mother my opinions of breastfeeding changed dramatically. Not only was it a completely unnatural thing for me to try and facilitate, I wasn't a way I could bond with my daughter. It actually interfered with the process. If you're OK with the decision to bottle feed, like I was, you know there are feelings on breastfeeding you don't need to explain to anyone. After all, you're the mom, and it's your right to choose what's best for you and your baby.
When I chose to give up my dream of breastfeeding, it wasn't without a lot of thought and consideration. The cons far outweighed the pros, in my case, and with my postpartum depression escalating in severity, bottle feeding is the one thing that salvaged a relationship with my newborn daughter. Along this confusing journey of doubt and regret, I didn't know if it was the right choice or the wrong one. Breastfeeding has long been held up as the ultimate way to feed your kid (even though it's simultaneously shunned in public, proving mothers just can't win regardless), and I let that perception penetrate my mind and sit there. I wanted to give my daughter the best, and the "best" has always been considered breastfeeding.
However, my daughter turned out just fine. Yes, even though she was bottle fed. Crazy, right? While I still wonder what could've been if I'd held on a little longer (or stuck with breastfeeding when my son was born), I know breastfeeding wasn't for me. I wish that weren't true, but it is. With that being said, here are some feelings on breastfeeding I experienced that I truly believe no one should explain to damn near anyone else. As long as you and your baby are fine, that's good enough.