Before I became pregnant for the first time, I had no clue all the ways my life would change. Mostly for the better but I also didn't know how drastically my hormones would shift as I maneuvered my way through severe postpartum depression (PPD) that left me unable to bond with my newborn daughter and literally fighting for my life every moment of every day. I still remember all the things I wanted to tell my newborn baby the moment I met her, flooding my thoughts like a monsoon, but all I could manage were the avalanche of tears as I tried to connect nine months of a hellish pregnancy to this tiny little being in my arms.
After a labor-intensive pregnancy that forced me into mandatory bedrest with an induction to follow, delivery ended up lasting only about 20 minutes of push time. There was an exact moment I went from chilled and in tremendous pain, to gathering all the strength I could muster to get her out of me. It was the first time I'd ever felt so close to being a real life superhero.
When they lifted her into the air for the room to see, she didn't make a sound. As she nuzzled beneath my chin after they placed her onto my chest, she looked up at me with her big, hopeful eyes, and I burst into tears. It didn't feel real; as a new mom, it didn't feel like she was my baby. And yet, my first instinct was to tell her all the things I've come to know about life and how she could someday rule the world. Those early moments we shared, the buzz of the room silenced between my ears. All I could see, and feel, was her and I knew then I'd die to protect her. Now, ten years later, the feeling is truer than ever.
Some of the things I wanted to tell her when she first emerged from my body are also truer than ever and, whether you're a first time mother, soon-to-be, or an experienced pro, I'm sure you've thought some of the very same sentiments below. As mothers, there's so much we want to share with our little ones and to pass on to the future generation so they'll know what life may bring in the event we're not here to witness it.