Having a baby is like riding an emotional rollercoaster designed to impact your self-esteem one way or another. Sometimes you feel like you're on top of it all, and others you feel completely incapable and lost. Feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, and insecure is par for the parenting course, but that doesn't make postpartum life easy. What makes the entire situation even more difficult is the fact that most of your efforts go unnoticed. Thankfully, there are more than a few moments when your baby is trying to tell you you're enough, you just have to pay attention.
I never felt like the World's Greatest Mom. To be honest, most days I don't even feel like I'm the World's OK-ist Mom. I'm nowhere near perfect, so I don't buy into any illusions about my capabilities. As a new mom, brand new to this whole parenting thing, it was painfully obvious that I had no clue what I was doing. As a result, I never felt like I was enough for my newborn daughter. Wouldn't she be better off with a woman who felt like motherhood was this innate capability? Wouldn't someone else, who felt more confident as a parent, be a better mom to her than I could be?
Turns out, the answer is a resounding no. In the end, the only person who can be the mom my daughter (and now my son) needs is me — flaws and all. And while it's sometimes hard to notice all the ways your baby is trying to tell you that you're everything they could ever require — especially when you're sleep deprived — those signs are there. When they can't actually say the words, they can show you in the following ways: