Being a mom is hard. Don't get me wrong, though. I know what I signed up for when I decided to have a family: long days, sticky kisses and more crayon masterpieces than I know what to do with. And I'm cool with all of that! But there are days when a bit of self-doubt forms in my subconscious and I ask myself questions like, “Am I giving each of my kids enough one-on-one attention? Am I making my family as happy as possible? Am I a good mom?” Obviously these questions are hard for anyone to answer.
I think I’m a pretty great mom, but I know I’m not perfect. There was one time where my oldest son came down with a horrible cold the day before Mother’s Day. He had a high fever, cough, runny nose and upset stomach. We spent part of the day at urgent care and then went home with a ton of antibiotics — but I knew the next 24 hours or so were going to really, really difficult.
My son and I were up most of the night because he's terrified of throwing up, so every time he felt like he was going to, he'd become hysterical. It was frustrating. I tried to remain calm and patient every time he refused to drink some much needed water or take some much needed medicine, but boy — it was hard.
While I was taking care of him, I couldn’t help but be a little disappointed that the big special Mother's Day weekend we had planned wasn’t going to happen. I was going to go to the spa, have a picnic in the park with my kids, and then we were all going to take a trip to see my mother and grandmother. I was really looking forward to laughing and enjoying the company of my family. I knew it wasn’t my son’s fault that he got sick, and I certainly never blamed him for anything...but in the moment, I did wish we were celebrating Mother’s Day as a loving family.
On the other hand, I knew I had to shift into supermom mode and get my kid well. And so that’s what I did.
As I was rubbing my son’s back while he had his head in a bucket, I realized that I wouldn't want us to be doing anything else. I thought to myself, “Isn’t this the true meaning of being a mother? Taking care of him and loving him no matter what?” I quickly realized that I didn’t really need to go to a spa or have a picnic in the park to celebrate the fact that I was a mother because I was already in the best place in the whole wide world — right there next to my kid. When it seemed like the worst of the sickness was over, I started to feel super guilty for caring so much about celebrating Mother's Day.
But when my son was running around the house like a wild animal and I knew he was back to his usual self, he came up to me and said, "Mom, you always know just how to take care of me," and gave me a huge hug and kiss. Being the softy that I am, I teared up. Even if I felt like a bad mom because I briefly wished we were celebrating Mother's Day when he was sick, in reality, I was still a good mom because I helped him feel better.
I know I'm not the only parent who wonders if they're doing a great job at parenting. In fact, just 24% of all parents with kids under the age of 18 say they're doing a good job raising them. It feels nice to know other parents have moments where they doubt themselves, but in the grand scheme of things, we're all doing a pretty amazing job. Let's all try and remember that even in the toughest moments, what makes us great parents is that our kids believe that we are.
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