Breastfeeding is such a complex thing, and when it ends, you can end up feeling, well, rather complex. There's no right way to react to the end of breastfeeding, because everyone's experience is different, but there may be things you don't expect to miss about breastfeeding—things that will hit you later on that suddenly make you nostalgic for that time you shared together.
It's amazing how many different emotions you can feel during the time that you breastfeed your baby. In the beginning, there's the anxiety of getting things "right," and making sure your baby's fed. At some point in the early months, you find yourself feeling frustrated or resentful of how much time is devoted to feeding this hungry baby. All the lost hours of sleep and the painful nipples from cluster feeding. Then there's the exasperation of your distracted baby who suddenly won't stay latched for more than six seconds because everything is just so interesting! There's the annoyance you feel at their refusal to eat solid foods when sick or teething, despite being older, too.
But, inevitably, your breastfeeding time together comes to and end, and all of the beautiful moments, and moments that weren't beautiful but still special somehow, come to the surface and overwhelm you.
A month ago, I had to suddenly wean my son. It was not a heartbreaking, painful affair; he was 21 months old and didn't need it quite like he used to, and I was certainly ready for him to be finished. I hadn't put any pressure on him to stop feeding yet, though, and I hadn't even thought about night weaning. Then I pinched a nerve in one of my upper vertebrae, and after several trips to the ER, ended up on some pretty heavy pain killers, anti-inflammatories, and muscle relaxants. My breastfeeding time was over, just like that.
Here are 6 things you don't expect to miss, once breastfeeding is over, but actually do: