I never thought much about what my second pregnancy would be like after the birth of my daughter. Although I had some issues with hypertension (leading to bedrest and, ultimately, an induction), everything else was pretty standard. After two miscarriages and additional health problems, though, all that changed. Of the things I learned about myself when my pregnancy was labeled high-risk, the fact that I can get through anything tops the list.
When I went in for my first few doctors appointments with my son in utero, I was immediately thrown by the red label attached to my file. Upon further inspection, I realized it said, "Threatened Abortion." Immediately, I had flashbacks of the pregnancy losses I endured previously. I was already this baby wasn't going to make it, too, so those two words sent panic up and down my spine. Once the doctor located a heartbeat, and a strong one at that, I felt somewhat at ease.
Still, my doctor informed me that, because of my history of hypertension and loss, this pregnancy was considered a "high risk" pregnancy. It shouldn't have been news to me, I guess, but I wasn't prepared to hear those words. After all, those words meant I'd have to change my lifestyle in order to keep my baby, and myself, healthy and alive. In other words, whether I liked it or not, I had to learn to be OK with my diagnosis. With that, here are some things I learned about myself, and what I'm capable of, when my pregnancy was labeled "high risk."