I remember sitting in the NICU, holding my daughter when she was 5 days old (our third day knowing her), being told by the hospital staff that if I didn't choose a pediatrician they couldn't discharge my daughter. I was so overwhelmed in general at that time, so that one decision paralyzed me. Little did I know, it was far from one of the toughest decisions I'd make as a mom before my daughter even turned 2!
When I had finally chosen a pediatrician (thank goodness for the helpful hospital social worker who saw the panic on my face), the nurses started asking about vaccines and whether I wanted my daughter to have the Hep B vaccine immediately. I had no idea and, with my husband in work at the time, it felt like too big a decision to make. I'm so glad I asked for more time to make the decision and, in the end, it took us a month to feel comfortable giving it to her.
Those first tiny decisions were only the tip of the iceberg when it came to the decisions I've made as a mom in my daughter's first year and a half of life. We swiftly moved on to sleep training and childcare and even what school lists to put her on. Of course, in theory the difficult decisions we've made early on will pave the way for making even more decisions about her in the future (and hopefully with a little less stress and anxiety). Or at least that's what I'm going to tell myself as we plow ahead!