Being pregnant is so hard, y'all. It messes with your mind, body, and emotions. Before too long, you feel like you're a hair's breadth from losing it. You forget things you've always known and you react to triggers that never bothered you before. More often than not, it's your partner who bears the brunt of your fluctuating emotions. They're an easy target for your anger and sadness and anxiety because, well, they're there. However, while there are thoughts that every pregnant woman has about her partner, there's no reason any pregnant woman should be ashamed of them. After all, you're just a human being growing another human being inside your body.
I think I was mad at my husband for one thing or another for the entirety of my pregnancy. From the time I saw that second line to the time our son was born (to at last five months postpartum, actually), I was pretty much on-edge and ready to blow. The hormones made me crazy, so I thought crazy things and I felt crazy things. I cried all the time and I raged and I threw fits. In other words, I was bananas. B-A-N-A-N-A-S. My partner took it in stride, though. He understood that I wasn't really mad and him, and that it wasn't really my fault. When in doubt (read: always), blame pregnancy.
As I've made more mom friends, I've learned that this kind of thing is totally normal, and every woman has thoughts about her partner when she's pregnant. Some are kind, some definitely aren't, and some are just covered in an indifference that can make you question your entire relationship. Either way, they're pretty normal and there's no reason to ever feel ashamed about thinking the following: