After the rush of giving birth wore off, I faced my first big challenge as a mom of a new human: breastfeeding the strongest, hangriest baby around. Apparently, my baby hadn't read any of the same stuff about breastfeeding that I had. He also didn't know that because he'd been born at home without any meds, he was supposed to latch instantly and perfectly like the perfect earth mama and baby we were. Cringing every time he let out a hungry fuss, I knew I was in the middle of one of those times you feel defeated postpartum, where you eventually learn how resilient you are.
After a few days of hit-or-miss latching and raw nipples, I decided that if I could give birth in my own bedroom, I could figure this out, too. I started Googling and booked an appointment with a lactation consultant, and after learning a few tricks for getting a deep latch every time, we finally hit our nursing stride. Bouncing back from a time when I dreaded feeding to a time when I loved it showed me that though raising a brand new person was tough at times, I am tough, too. That was a lesson I’d learn over and over again (and one I’m still learning, two years later).
Sometimes after giving birth, it feels like you have the world’s most important job, yet you don’t feel like you have it in you to be trusted with such a huge responsibility. However, only half of that statement is true. You do have it in you, and you’ll see that over and over again after you persevere through postpartum moments like the following: