Some new moms look forward to quiet moments with the baby once they've returned home from the hospital. After all, there's a special bond that needs to happen ASAP, and what better way than through the art of breastfeeding? This is, of course, a rhetorical. Any nursing mothers knows there are some breastfeeding moments that'll leave you wanting your own mom, and I "lucky enough to experience all of them, sometimes simultaneously. Motherhood is never lacking in painful, humiliating, and often comedic moments, and breastfeeding is certainly no exception.
My breastfeeding woes began immediately. I held my beautiful, healthy newborn daughter, hopeful she and I would get things figured out pretty quickly and eager to dip into all that pre-baby knowledge I'd soaked up throughout pregnancy. Unfortunately, we experienced the exact opposite and my hope sank fast. Not only did she refuse to latch, but her fussiness from being hungry only intensified my "failing mother" feelings and, in turn, interrupted that special bonding process while simultaneously feeding into my postpartum depression.
As if the whole pregnancy, multi-day labor and delivery, and painful recovery weren't enough, breastfeeding was there to remind me how not capable I was. Well, at least that's how it felt. So, with that in mind, here are a few of those moments, when all I wanted was my mother (who probably knew what she was doing when she was in my position).