In a few weeks, my youngest child will be going to kindergarten and I'm so excited for her. She's the kind of kid who will thrive in a classroom environment. She loves being around people, she's enthusiastic, and she enjoys trying new things. And, if I'm being honest, I'm excited for me, too. I've been a work-from-home mom for five years now, which has been wonderful... but extremely challenging. This is a new chapter for me, too. I wasn't as optimistic with my oldest. Because your first child going to kindergarten versus your second? Oh, they're two very different experiences.
Sending my oldest child to kindergarten got me this close to go into therapy. I'm not being flip and I'm not kidding. I've never been to therapy, not because I'm against it, but because before the summer of 2016 I hadn't much felt the need. (Here's where I fully admit to leading a charmed life.) But then I found myself staring down the reality that, in September, my first child was going to full-day kindergarten and I had a lot of feelings. So, so many feelings, and almost none of them encouraging or good. Part of that, admittedly, was specific to my worries for my specific child: he was a stubborn, emotional kid who didn't handle change well. But if I'm being honest, the real fears and worries and stress weren't really about him; they had to do with the fact that I hadn't imagined this milestone coming and now it was here and I wasn't ready.
It worked out, you guys. It usually does. So whether you're sending off your first or your second child, I hope my experience (which I understand to be pretty common) can give you some comfort... or at least a chuckle.