I had already had two children without experiencing any pregnancy or infant losses, so I was shocked and completely blindsided when I lost my first pregnancy. Quite honestly, binge-watching Netflix shows got me through my pregnancy losses. I'd say it's the only thing that got me through, actually. That's how powerful a salve it was. My best friend flying in from Wisconsin so someone could play with my kids while I binge-watched and my partner taking care of everything else? Yeah, that was pretty awesome, too.
I am a gal that has had my fair share of mind-ravaging depression in my lifetime. So, fortunately, I knew instinctually that sometimes the pain is too great and numbing out is the best possible self-care I can do. In particularly emotionally grueling periods of grad school, I would binge-watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer. During my clinical internship, for some inexplicable reason, it was Roswell. For perinatal depression? Battlestar Galactica. For perinatal anxiety? Bring on 16 & Pregnant. During my college-era break up, I spent time with Friends. During every early-20s existential crisis, I broke out Law & Order SVU. I have got binge-watching down to an emotional-savior-science.
So as bizarre as this may sound, when I had my first miscarriage the only thing that seemed reasonable, or doable, was to curl up under the covers in the dark and worship Netflix on my iPad. Anything was better than the sickening ruminating mantra of "dead baby in my uterus, dead baby in my uterus, dead baby in my uterus" going through my headprior to the dilation and curettage (D&C) and "empty, empty, empty" after the D&C. When you're facing the indescribably pain that is a pregnancy loss, give my list of sanity-saving, binge-tastic Netflix shows that got me through my miscarriages a try.