Motherhood comes with some really great days and, of course, some horribly challenging days. Sometimes the challenging days bleed into each other, making it pretty damn difficult to see the forest through the trees. It's pretty normal for parents to silently ponder what life would've been like without kids (or hide in the bathroom) when it all becomes a little too much. I've been there, and I know parenting can be overwhelming, but there are things you can tell yourself when you just don't want to parent anymore that might help the moments pass by a little easier.
Despite wanting (and constantly trying) to be the best mother to my children that I can possibly be, there have been times when I know I've failed them. Whether it's during my battles with anxiety and depression, or after deliveries when postpartum blues ruled my life, I think back to the mistakes I've made that leave me feeling like I shouldn't never decided to be a mother in the first place. Even writing that sentence leaves me with a twinge of shame, because failing is hard and defeat is hard and thinking you've let down the people who matter most to you is, well, hard. However, it's also inevitable. You can't raise children and not mess up. The longer I'm in this parenting game, the more I know this to be truest fact of raising other human beings.
Frustrated feelings that completely overwhelm you are normal, and the days when I literally can't hear another argument or pick up another toy are inevitable. When faced with those situations, I try to remember all the things I'm about to tell you; things every parent should tell themselves when parenting is the literal last thing they feel like doing. Also, massive hugs.