My husband and I are in our first week of waiting for that call. You know, the one from our new adoption agency, telling us our baby is finally here. After adopting our daughter 19 months ago, we know the call could come at any minute. We also know that it could take a while. It's difficult to make it through this waiting game upbeat, while simultaneously managing your expectations every time the phone rings. In fact, there are struggles every woman waiting for an adoption call knows all too well. Now, if only knowing was the hard part.
After we adopted our daughter, we quickly started getting phone calls from our adoption agency. Every time I saw that number pop up — saved aptly in my phone contacts as "First Name Adoption" — my whole body started shaking. It was a pavlovian response to the realization that answering the phone could change my life and the life of my family. Or, you know, it could not. We had a lot of the "or not" variety, but we also had a handful of calls that started with the sentence, "We have a situation, there's a baby..." and those phone calls simply took my breath away. Unfortunately, those calls also didn't work out, and we've changed agencies to hopefully increase our odds of adopting again.
Every time the phone rings, my heart jumps to my throat and my hands start shaking. That's a pretty tough way to live, especially when I know our wait could be up to a year. At least. Then again, that wait could end tomorrow. See? That back-and-forth is the inner monologue I navigate every single day, and why I think every other woman going though this process can relate to the following struggles. At least I know that, when that call does come, it will all be worth it.