Directly after you give birth, there are so many people around that you can't enjoy a moment of peace, quiet, sleep, or even some damn privacy. After I left the hospital, however, I found myself spending quite a bit of time alone with my babies. There are many postpartum emotions you'll experience alone, positive, negative, and everything in between.
In those private moments, while everyone else is at school or work or asleep, I find myself lost in a sea of emotions, ranging from overwhelming joy and satisfaction to profound sadness and anxiety. Will I be this happy forever?Look at this human I grew in my body. He's so amazing. I'm amazing, too. What if I am not a good mom? What if the baby gets hurt? Is he breathing? Why can't I feel happy?I'm such a screw up.I didn't get anything done today. I need help.
The bad news is that sometimes it's hard to know when to ask for help or how to get some, no matter how terrible you feel. Sadly, there's still a lot of shame around admitting that everything about parenthood is not perfect. Remember that no matter how bad you feel right now, you aren't alone. You are a great mom, you badass human being you. Repeat that mantra in those quiet postpartum moments. You can do this.