Five days after I gave birth, I met with a lactation consultant. At the time it seemed strange that the waiting room was full of so many women just like me, holding their new babies close and needing help with what we've always been told is a "natural" (and by default, effortless) function. As I looked around, it didn't seem that breastfeeding had come "naturally" to many of us. So I'm sure we experienced the thoughts every breastfeeding mom has when visiting a lactation consultant.
I had been referred to the breastfeeding support clinic by the hospital, as my son had shown a weak latch and they were concerned about his weight gain. I was skeptical when I arrived, I was in discomfort, I was adjusting to my new role as a mom, and I had started to think that I wasn't going to be able to breastfeed despite my best efforts. The amazing lactation consultant I saw immediately knew that I needed support more than anything else and, as a result, she gave me a great big hug and let me have a much-needed cry.
I don't think I would have been able to continue breastfeeding (which I ended up doing for 30 months) without her help. I left the appointment with a fancy new electric breast pump on loan, and a renewed sense of hope that I could master this new skill. During my appointment, I also had the following thoughts, which I'm going to go ahead and assume every mom has, too. #Solidarity