I was pregnant with twins until, at 19 weeks, one of my son's heart stopped beating. Prior to that loss, I was hospitalized for a severe blood infection that put the lives of both my sons, as well as my own, in danger. After I lost my son in utero, my team of doctors feared my body would miscarriage the remaining twin. I had two pre-term labor scares, weekly doctor visits to measure the size of my cervix and monitor ongoing pre-term labor contractions, and a slew of other tests.

In other words, my pregnancy was time-consuming, emotionally and physically exhausting, and pretty much all I could focus on. A wedding, even at a court house, would have been too much.

Thankfully, and because of the Affordable Care Act, I was insured through the duration of my pregnancy. Even when I was fired from my job when I was 15 weeks pregnant, after I was hospitalized and told my "condition" was too "unpredictable" by my employer, I was able to acquire health insurance because pregnancy was no longer considered a pre-existing condition.

Still, my pregnancy was expensive. I was hospitalized several times, put through invasive tests, and had to schedule three separate meetings (including an hour-long ultrasound) with a neonatal cardiologist. Obamacare saved my family from going into massive debt, but I still spent a ridiculous amount of money on hospital bills.

I mean, every pregnancy essentially has an expiration date, right? Every single time my partner and I were asked if we were planning on getting married, there was always the "before the baby is born" caveat. Why? I mean, why should we feel pressured to get married in the first place, but why would we add addition a pressure by planning a wedding in nine months (or less)?

My son is now a 2-year-old toddler, and he couldn't tell you what a marriage, is let alone whether or not his parents are in one. All he knows is that he is loved, he is protected, he is cared for, and his parents love and care about one another, too. He wouldn't have known the damn difference as a newborn, either.

I'm not one to judge, so if you planned a wedding (or are currently planning a wedding) while growing another human being, more power to you. Seriously, because I cannot imagine. My first trimester was exhausting. I barely had the energy to get out of bed and make my way to the bathroom to puke for the millionth time each day, let alone plan a wedding and entertain a bunch of people in the name of committed love. No. Freaking. Way. In my humble opinion, sleep > wedding.

My partner and I have been together for almost four years. We are as committed as any other married couple. I refuse to buy into the idea that our coupledom is somehow more legitimized if we sign a piece of paper and wear rings. Instead, I would rather focus on my partner (and myself), put in the work we have always been willing to put into our relationship to ensure that it continues.

Our relationship has actually "out-lasted" a few marriages. Of course, it's not about who stays together longer (and this isn't a competition between married couples and non-married couples, my friends), but I think it's important to note that marriage doesn't necessarily mean forever. I know what my partner and I have, and it's just as stable as any married couple.

It was nothing short of amazing, and kind of interesting, that so many people (friends, definitely family members, and even a few internet strangers) cared about our "last name situation." Would the baby have my last name, or my partner's? Would be do a combination? Would I want to get married so we could all have the same last name, as if that somehow made it easier for people to tell we were a family?

Sure, it's honestly no one's business. However, I found it pretty intriguing that the "last name debacle" became a reason why so many people thought my partner and I should get married. I mean, it's not like my newborn would come out the womb, see my driver's license, and somehow be confused as to who I was. He knew I was mom the moment he was born, and he knows who mom is now. We don't need the same last name, my friends. A name is just a name.

Now, I'm well-aware that getting married or having a wedding doesn't automatically equal stress. I know plenty of wonderful couples who had small weddings or went to a court house, tied the knot, and didn't worry about a damn thing. However, even filing the paperwork or standing in line in a court house just didn't seem worth it. I mean, why? I was pregnant and growing human arms and legs in my stomach, you guys. I had enough work cut out for me, so I really didn't see a legitimate reason to drag myself (or my partner) though anything even close to resembling wedding planning. Instead, I wanted to lay on the cough with my partner, watch every single episode of The Office ever made, and enjoy being "lazy" for as long as I could.

Even if we just went to a court house and paid the bare minimum in fees and whatnot, it would still be money spent on something that we really don't (personally) put a lot of stock into. For us, it would have been a waste of money, even if the amount of money would be considered minimal by most people. I honestly would have rather spent that money on cups of coffee or clothes for my newborn son, than on a marriage license.

Of course, you can do marriage on the cheap and it not be a significant dent in your finances, but even the time spent would have been unnecessary. When we don't believe we need marriage to validate our commitment, even waiting in line at a court house just seems like a waste.

Now, I completely understand why so many people (usually married friends and family members) question the reasons why my partner and I don't want to get married. We all want to feel validated in our choices, and when we see someone (or a couple) doing something differently and succeeding as a result, we tend to start to doubt ourselves and our own choices. Then again, for a slew of other reasons (usually anchored in a religious belief) a lot of people think my partner and I are just wrong.

Either way, we really don't care. We know what works best for us, we have our reasons why being in a committed relationship without marriage works best for us, and we don't really feel the need to constantly explain ourselves and the personal life decision we have made. We're happy. Our son is happy. That's truly all that matters.