Few things can be worse than losing a child. It's the kind of devastation that haunts you for the rest of you life, and there's no "getting over it." That said, a rainbow baby — a baby that follows a loss — might bring you and yours some comfort. Trust me, I know. My rainbow baby saved my relationship with my partner in more than a few ways, and while I wish it hadn't of been necessary, I'm so thankful for the gift of my son and what he was able to provide me, my partner, and our marriage.
When my partner and I lost our daughter, I was fairly certain I was done having kids. I decided it just wasn't in the cards for me, and I couldn't imagine living through that kind of pain ever again. After all, I'd barely made it out alive the first time. The following year, though, I became pregnant again. And while I contemplated abortion, I realized I wanted to try again. And so my partner and I ventured into another pregnancy, high-risk this time, tentatively hopeful.
The pregnancy itself didn't always bring us together. In fact, sometimes it made us feel very, very far apart. But now that our son is here, we're closer than we've ever been, and I know it's because of the experiences we've shared. We wouldn't be who are are, as individuals and as a couple, if it wasn't for the loss we endured and the rainbow baby we're raising.