Having kids is intense. You think you know yourself pretty well, then a baby comes along and forces you to be more introspective than you've ever been in your entire, pre-baby life. You find yourself thinking about things you never contemplated before, forming opinions about things you never even knew existed. So, honestly, the things my son has unknowing taught me about myself shouldn't be all that surprising. After all, just his presence in my life has been a truly eye-opening experience.
Before I had kids, I was pretty confident that I knew myself fairly well. I thought I was all kinds of self-aware and, as a result, I was confident in where I stood on any given topic. Yeah, that was a little premature. My kid taught me that, ultimately, I wasn't self-aware at all.I had so much to learn about myself but, thanks to my kids, I've been going to school every day since I became a mother. It hasn't been a painless experience, but growth rarely is, right? Kids experience growing pains when their bones grow; parents experience growing pains when their self-awareness increases.
I've changed and learned so much in the almost five years I've been a mother; not just in the obvious ways, like how to tell if your kid is sick or if it's just teething, but in the, "Wow, I can't believe I never realized this [insert extremely profound thing here] about myself." It's kind of amazing when it isn't, truthfully, a little overwhelming. In the end and always, though, I'm so thankful for my son and the endless things he's teaching me about myself.