Despite prevailing stigma, no one "hopes" to get an abortion. We don’t throw "let's all have abortions" parties. We aren’t going to the club hours after our abortions to find someone else to get us pregnant so we can have another abortion. This line of thinking is absurd and laughable at best. Anti-choicers have no idea how the majority of women who choose abortion truly think and feel before, during, and after the legal procedure. So I’m going to clarify a bit by letting you know some of the thoughts I had while having my abortion.
When I first found out I was unexpectedly pregnant, I cried. I immediately knew what needed to happen. I had just spent the past two years pregnant. The first year, my daughter was born prematurely and died after birth, leaving me with a hefty case of birth-related Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Then I went through a difficult, high-risk pregnancy and complicated birth with my son. He wasn’t even a year old, and I was pregnant again.
This time, however, I didn’t want any of it. I scheduled an appointment with a local clinic right away, got a sitter, and went with my partner to the clinic. I admit I was nervous and afraid, but also set in my conviction to terminate this pregnancy and move forward with my life and with my family.
Once I was at the clinic, and prepping for my procedure, this was my thought process: