The first time I took maternity leave, it was winter. The cold prevented me from taking my newborn out much and I barely saw daylight thanks to the sun going down so early. While I did get visitors and got out of the apartment when I could, those 12 weeks felt eerie. It was probably affecting my psyche, and I found myself imagining strange things my baby could be doing when left alone while I showered. This could have been caused by some undiagnosed postpartum anxiety. Or, my baby was truly living the secret life I envisioned for her. Honestly, I’ll never know. Nine years later and she has remained mum on the subject.
I didn’t often leave either of my kids alone when they were babies. Not only was I bit paranoid about their safety (thanks to my son flipping himself over in his bouncy seat when he was left unattended for 20 seconds), but my time with them was so limited, so why would I choose to be without them when they were growing and changing every day? I am a full-time working mom, and I miss so much already so the choices I make about how to spend time outside working and sleeping are very much dictated by my children. And I’m OK with that, at least for now. (Ask me again when my daughter enters middle school.)
If you’ve ever wondered what your baby is thinking or doing, I’ve come up with absolutely plausible scenarios, though I could understand how they may seem far-fetched to non-parents. My children never cease to amaze me, especially when I’m out of the room.